2018? Are u guys ready for another brand new year?

Well since it's the last few days of 2017 i guess i should really blog rather than just telling myself to blog but did not.  

Most of the bloggers will review about their 2017 ,about what adventures they had been and writing down their next year resolutions whereas youtube singers will be doing 2017 hit songs mashup.  Well... Me?   

I would like to say something about 2017 as well (my first time tho) 2017 is indeed one of the most remarkable year for me.(that's why I'm blogging about this)  Not just for now but for the rest of my life because this is the year where i step into another part of my life .

Which is 

I finally can have an official relationship 

You guys really can't imagine how this changes my life really haha

 Well in 2017 i broke up with my ex and that was an unofficial relationship 

I felt really tough to go through that kinda relationship where i need to hide everything from my mum 

About my past relationship: i used to stay in penang and worked at a mini market nearby my house. My ex used to walk to my working place and accompany me. Well this actually makes me feel scared what if my mum suddenly came to visit me?  What if she suddenly buys me food and so on and so forth.  Every single sweet actions actually makes me scare whenever we hang out I'd lie to my mum said that i was just hanging out with my friends 

It's not that i dont want to tell about my relationship, it's just that my mum are to fierce and she had warn me not to be in a relationship 

Well, the next part is i moved to johor. Haven't broke up with him yet. Then he came all the way from penang to johor just to celebrate my birthday with me 

And i needs to lie about who I'm celebrating with and i kept thinking will she feel suspicious so on and so forth. He gave me a bear ,a bouquet of flowers ,novels, gummies and a jacket 

 I have to lie to my mum about everything, the feeling of scaree being scolded or being beaten and also the feeling of guilt for kept lying to my mum and not have a healthy relationship. 

I have to keep all the presents in my car and i am so afraid she might find out about them 

The flowers?  I need to threw them before i even gets home 

It was such a bad feeling throughout this relationship . 

Well, now I've met a guy that my mum approves 

It's not that i purposely told my mum about him as my bf but somehow she found out and scolded me 😂 can't work for like few days my manager and my be was so worried because it was my first time disappeared with such irresponsible manner without telling anything

 Can't contact anyone at that time. My phone got confiscated 

My mum even scolded yew (my bf)

But somehow I don't know why my mum suddenly say she agreed to our relationship

And we got together 

Thanks to my mum for letting us together 

Thanks to yew for not giving up on me and still holding on to me although my mum and him quarreled and my mum even said wanted to report and so on (but didn't hehe) 

Thanks to all this that happens 

I had a new person that loves me in my life 

When ever I get angry he'll laugh and smile and said that I'm cute 

I can't felt it, that it was sincere and not sweet talk 

Thanks to him I had more adventures more exciting things in my life 

Whenever I said I wanna try something he'll bring me go
He will try his very best to help me fulfill every single wishes that i have

This is also my first time having a trip with him 

We also had a trip together with my mum

And we three stay together in one house 

It's something that I thought it will not happens in my life 

We can celebrate everything together ,having fun together, watch movies together by 2 or by the three of us

Gets to even celebrate Chinese new year in both families (my mum's and his family) 

 Really felt very blessed for whatever I'm having now

He's the one and I've felt it.
The one that Loves me the most and Knows me the best
The one that i felt that i can depend on
Depend my future on him
The one that I've never felt so secure with
The one that i felt that he can protects me
Someone that I've never met before :)

But things don't go really well sometimes  , every relationship will have their own hardships 

No prefect relationship 

Nothing is perfect 

Because of his current job he might need to move to Penang (where I used to be)  

And I might be living in johor  

Maybe this is what we say karma 

In my past relationship I'm the reason it is a ldr relationship from pg to jb

Now he's the reason that this is a ldr relationship from jb to pg 

How ironic hahaha 

Many people must had gone through ldr 

But to me it's extra tough because all i had was him 

I have no friends 

I don't hang out with friends 

All i had was him 

And i depend on him too much that wherever i go he was the one to be my driver  

I don't drive often because i don't have confident and I'm afraid of driving 

All those adventures might ends real soon all those cafe hopping or shopping might vanish 

But it's ok maybe some solution might came up or something 

There's always a glimpse of lights in every darkness 

Just like how the stars shine for us at night 

Stay strong  xx