Yup it is indeed a very VERY long time I did not post anything here .I even had the thought of living it dead here (and it is pretty dead rn :"D) well , I don't know why my "blogging passion" came up again maybe bcs sad things strike recently and I just feel like writing something .
Had anyone of u ever felt that in a relationship ,you're the one that initiate most of the time ?finding topics to talk to him or her most of the time ? Do u feel tired of this "one sided relationship "? I am and am sort of frustrated one day to the extend that I just feel like not chatting with him anymore and just watch how we are going to be strangers with memories :) .from a sort of close friends to a stranger .not bcs I hate him for not initiating, it's just that I just feel how unimportant I am to him in this relationship  (although we're just friends :). But there's something in me that tells me not to just give up like that ,so I sort of confronted him (sort of) and he told me I am an important friend of his :) but all in all the feeling of security in this relationship did not last long bcs most of the times he still finds me for some specific reasons :) and today I have the feeling of giving up again .not sure should I but I'm tired to initiate ,so I'll not initiate anymore ,I'll just reply if he do text me :)